Bolt of Blue

I’ve been quite busy. You know how. The usual. Get up, go to work. Come home, eat. Spend time with my husband. Sleep. See movies. Help friends with parties. Dream. Shop. Live. Breathe.

I have my good days. I have my bad days.

I try to be thankful for all I that have and not get too bogged down in the silliness of every day life. But of course, it’s not always so easy.

This week has just been one of those weeks. When it gets hard to remember that I just had a wonderful Thanksgiving with my family. Or how incredible it was to see Fiona Apple again perform so magnificently. Or how I had a great time hanging out with a number of my friends the other night. Or you know, that I have a roof over my head, money in my pocket, and an amazing person to share my life with.

Yah. Ok.

So I haven’t posted in a long time. Jeez… well over a month. I don’t know why exactly. Plenty of things going on or pop culture events I could rant about. But I just haven’t been too motivitated lately.

On one very happy note, Match Point is going to be out in 26 days. Before that there’s Christmas, my first real Christmas with Remi after 6 years. And my friend Autumn’s birthday party is tomorrow. I’ll be baking some yummy cakes with my man. And then spending time with many friends I love.

So yah.

Ok. Live has it’s bittersweet moments. But I just got to remember to keep that chin up.

More photos coming. More details too. I met Fiona Apple. I helped Elijah Wood get to a bathroom. I cut up my heel. I walked ten miles up and down stairs. I’m quite floored we managed to pull off such a fabulous party for fans. Oh yeah… CLEAN SWEEP!

I had planned to write up a more detailed entry but I just got some really not so good news so trying to deal right now. Posting this is helping me get my mind off things. And since I can’t hug Remi because he’s a thousand miles away, I’m going to see my mom and get the hug I really need right now.

So I’m back… and I hate it. I hate being in this city I normally adore. Cause I’ve left so much of myself back in Vancouver. Trying to throw myself back into work. And I have plenty to keep me busy.

Yesterday I managed to go to two instores in one night… The Roswell cast did an instore with Sensefield performing. Got my Roswell soundtrack signed by Shiri, Adam, Nick, Majandra and Brendan. It was sort of weird… I was the very first person in line thanks to Sue who is a pro and knew where to stand when she got there. I didn’t really know what to say to any of them and I wasn’t nervous or anything. When I saw Nick, I felt like blurting out the Viper Room story but otherwise, I just said lots of ‘hi’, ‘thanks’, ‘nice to meet you’. Lame. It turned out to be a crazy fun night but I just felt off… I had fun but I felt like I was going through the motions. I wasn’t all there. Erica wanted to track down Sensefield after and we did. They were very nice guys.

Then we bolted and went to Aron’s to the Phantom Planet instore. We get there, walk into the parking lot and ended up having a great spot by the side of the stage. Lots of usual ‘people’ were there and some unusual… Rooney boys, Johnny Knoxville, Perry Farrell. The set was a blast… though the crowd was pretty lame. Only the usual hardcore suspects showed the love. Sam kicked some major bass ass. During whole songs, I just concentrated on his brilliant playing. Alex gave a great vocal performance. Giving a lot and then at the end, he climbed up on this lighting rig ala Damon Albarn. Though, this was a temp stage so I was feeling a little scared for the boy. He said he got a little electrocuted by it when I asked him if he enjoyed that later. It was weird to go through the actual signing part afterwards. I wasn’t all that into it since I’d rather talk to them afterwards. Joked around with Darren… and Jason went nuts and did a self-portrait for me when he signed my CD booklet. Crazy kid.

The night ended at one of my favorite restaurants all because of the amazing Chinese shrimp salad… and then driving home, calling my boy, and curling up in bed all alone and miserable. La la la la.

Song of the moment: One Ray of Sunlight, Phantom Planet

I took this organ quiz and the results were so me it’s not even funny: You’re the LUNGS – You love life, but don’t really know what’s best for you. Sometimes you bite off more than can be chewed.

There are dozens of this quizzes I’ve seen posted on all kinds of blogs lately. They are very addicting. I am also cherry flavored (not as kinky as it sounds): You’re a sweet person to those who care the most and you have a kind heart. And I’m also a strawberry: You are caring and romantic. You are loyal to your friends. You friends can trust you. You are well loved.

Alright, Anna has a spectacular blog design… go now and bask in the glow of the green fairy. And Heather has a gorgeous new layout too.

And how awesome is this? Been making mixed cds for my pals to introduce them to the beauty and joy of Jeff Buckley’s music, if only my burner would cooperate with me.

Starsailor was very cool last night. James sang three songs, Coming Down, Way to Fall and Good Souls, by himself with just a guitar to keep him company. It was wonderful. Then the rest of the boys came out for a very casual autograph signing. There was a lot of people there which was nice to see. I was with a pretty big group of friends and so we were a little scattered throughout the line. After Eddie went by (he shook Ben’s hand and I was happy for him since he is in love with Ben), I was trying to get his attention to take pictures since he was just standing there by the end of the table. He was being difficult and I didn’t want to yell out or anything. James just watched us interacting and smiled at me when I rolled my eyes.

For some reason, I got flustered when I went up for my turn. I asked Barry how he was doing and then he got very excited about the cd booklet I was asking them to sign. It’s for their DVD single of Good Souls and they hadn’t seen it yet. So then Barry, James and Ben proceeded to pass it back and forth and tease each other about it concluding in Ben telling Barry that in his picture he has tits. It was hilarious. Barry and Ben smoked from time to time even though it’s illegal. And James drank a Corona (great choice after just singing with a show to do the next day). I was at a loss for words. I answered Barry’s question about where the booklet was from but I just didn’t say much else. When I got to James, I told him how wonderful his performance was and thanked him. He was very sweet. He signed the booklet and put down ‘love’ with it which I didn’t notice until later. All in all, it was a cool night. I got a lot of free stuff that Crapital handed out and Amoeba was pretty cool to those we were waiting a long time.

I’m very excited to see them tonight because like I predicted, James was on KCRW yesterday and he said that the show would be a double-bill. Both bands would do full sets. How rad is that?

So no Donnie for the celeb hockey game. I’m sad. I guess he didn’t make the team or something – I don’t really understand the whole set-up. But Brendan is going to be there so that’s okay then. And all kinds of shows are coming up… Nelly Furtado, Gorillaz, another Mellowdrone show… keeps me busy. Keeps me going… but doesn’t keep me counting the days until I see my babe again.

So much has been going on with me it’s a wonder I’m still somewhat sane.

Last week the Moulin Rouge soundtrack came out. It’s incredible. I am going to have serious heart problems when I watch the film tomorrow night.

Last Tuesday was definitely new music day. I bought 4 new cds that were released that day. Weezer, Joe McIntyre, The Go-Go’s and Depeche Mode. I’ve been too busy to listen to any of them except for Weezer and Joe’s. So far, amazing! Joe sounds great and is adorable. Weezer rocks! So glad they have come back.

They’ve been filming a movie near where I work. It’s so frustrating. They filmed in our building a couple of days and one day while we were in the office. They kept telling us to be quiet. I was actually sshhed. I was so annoyed I told the dude whatever and kept talking. Jake Busey is like 8 feet tall. Had to walk past him when I went to the bathroom. And Adam Garcia is pretty nice looking. He was walking around our desks cause I guess he was bored. They both wore horrible outfits. Orange band uniforms or something. The office was so not starstruck it was funny. But it will be neat to see our office in the finished film.

So the official Duran Duran website finally made the announcement that Warren has left and that the original band members are getting back together for an album and tour. I’m still nervous and still feel sad about the whole thing. But if I see Roger Taylor next year, well… I can’t even begin to imagine.

Roswell got cancelled by the stupidest network somehow still alive but got picked up official by UPN. YEAH!!!! There is still hope! And there is going to be a full 22 episode 3rd season! Now I can watch the season finale knowing that. I have to have the kleenex ready cause the preview made me tear up so I know this is going to be emotional to watch. I can’t wait.

Life is so… up in the air for me. Too much is happening and so much is unclear. I miss my love. I know I’m not healthy, emotionally or physically. I am certainly not happy being apart from the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. I just hope that we finally get a little luck and things start going our way for once. But no matter what, I’m not giving up.

I’m crazy. My boyfriend is always telling me that and I know it’s true.

Ah… I’m back. Kinda.

Feel like hell. Too tired. But otherwise, pretty happy with the Brilliance redesign.

LOVED Vancouver. It was so beautiful up there. Got lots of cool goodies… it was a fun trip and we saw so much. We even got to see an awesome free concert by Ashley MacIssac at the University of British Columbia. He is this crazy fiddler from Novia Scotia and probably my boyfriend’s favorite musician. He was incredible and funny and played the fiddle like a mad man.

Great fun. Canadians are crazy and I seriously love one of them.

I’m going to Vancouver on Thursday. I can’t wait. It’s going to be fun. Well, it will be very cold too but it’s going to be a nice getaway weekend. I need it.